Thursday, May 8, 2014
Grateful - Oh Yes I Am
So...it has been a few weeks since I have participated in Five Minute Friday. It was a case of me letting busyness rule. No more.
Five Minute Friday is all about letting go and being free. Lisa-Jo shares a word prompt and we go for five minutes. Five minutes of being free and unedited. It is an amazing time with amazing people. After you write, you share and you read, you learn and you grow. It is pretty amazing. Join us by heading to Lisa-Jo's Five Minute Friday Post.
Today's prompt is GRATEFUL.
If I look back at my life to where I am right now, I can't help but be grateful.
Back story: In 2005, I moved 3000 miles away from home to get away from an abusive relationship. That relationship was five years too long. Through those five years, I lost all confidence in myself and lost all hope. Moving was a desperate act, because no matter how hard I tried, I could not get away from this man. He showed up everywhere.
For two months, my son and I lived off of savings, and I decompressed. I spent a lot of time in prayer and a lot of time healing. My family in California counseled me and loved on me. I needed those two months, but when month three came up, I needed to find a job. I began sending out resumes and filling out applications. I took lots of tests and waited.
Finally when down to my last $40, I knew I was nearing the end of my rope. I had to get a job. I was on the way home from a job interview, and wanted to head home to freshen up before heading out for another step in an application process. I began to cry. I was scared. Things weren't working out too well. I just didn't feel good about my last interview. Even the ones that I had felt good about didn't end up with a job.
Suddenly the song that had been playing in the background seemed louder.
"Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to Me"
As tears streamed down my face, I pulled the car over and listened to the song.
"I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more"
It was as if God reached right out to me right there in my car. At the time, I didn't even know who sang the song, but I knew God used it to show me His love.
I pulled myself together and drove back home. I freshened up and headed out to the next opportunity. I timidly applied for the job and was given an interview immediately. I was then hired, and I passed a background check in an hour. When I shared this with my co-workers they were stunned. It took them months to complete the process. The uniform for this job was supplied. All I needed was to get shoes. Twenty of my $40 paid for my shoes and the final $20 went to gas for my commute.
I am so grateful that God saw me (never stopped watching over me really) in that moment and showed me His deep love.
Here's where it gets pretty crazy cool. Eight years later I was married to my soul mate (6 years married now), working in Christian radio and was given the opportunity to interview the person who wrote and sang that song. Best of all, I got to thank him for it (minor PS - My program director only told me I was interviewing Matthew West 10 minutes before it was to happen, because he didn't want me to freak out...PPS I freaked out anyway). It was like God gave me the opportunity to go full circle.
Life is not always going to be easy. I know this. I also know that God saw me through the worst and shared with me His best.
How cool is our God?
How grateful am I?
Oh...here's a link to that song. Still gets me every time.