Today is day one of Proverbs 31 Ministries Online Bible Study of "Made to Crave" by Lysa Terkeurst, and I am beyond stoked.
I really do feel like this is going to be different. I am definitely feeling a difference in myself, and I believe that last week's nightmare in the dressing room was a huge help. Oh and by nightmare, I mean discovering that I am a lot larger than I had first thought. I will not be defeated though. There are a lot of firsts going on here. One of the biggest is this is the first time I am going to proceed with the full understanding that I am not going to look for immediate results in any of this. I will probably stumble here and there, but I will continue and continue and continue to get up. Honestly it isn't just that this time will be different. This time I WILL BE DIFFERENT.
This week's word is "Empowered." When I think of the word empowered, I think about mighty strength. I think about being able to do the impossible. I think about standing firm even when the waves come rushing in. I am going to stand firm. I am going to lean on God more than ever before.
I am going to go to God first rather than slip into going anywhere else. When times are tough I do turn to God a lot, but I also do that after first looking at myself and getting mad at myself for whatever it is I find myself in. I will also often see what I can do first even though I know what God can do is best. Changing that is going to be tough which is why I am so glad to be a part of this study. It is nice to know that I am not alone in this.
Our verse for this week's study is from Psalm 84:2
Psalm 84:2, My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord, my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.
That is my dream.
I can hardly imagine having those feelings. Desiring God so much that I feel almost weak. It isn't that I don't desire God. I know I do, but I want to actively seek out God more than I seek anything else. More than anyone else. I want a God focus more than anything else.
I don't know how often I will post about this study, but I do plan to fully put myself into it. I look forward to seeing what God will do. To measure that, I want to show you honestly where I am.
1 - Overweight (I hate it)
2 - Sad but hopeful. No one likes to be other than who God has created them to be. I have lots of great qualities, but my weaknesses and failings cause me to feel incredibly discouraged. I have no doubt that God will do something amazing, but I am human and still of course am tied to my disappointment in myself.
3 - Tired. I am tired of being in this point. Wishing but not enough doing.
The above are my gathered materials.
1 - My Bible
2 - Made to Crave Book
3 - My planner (mainly I hope to keep myself on task when I am not home studying)
4 - Made to Crave study journal (I picked this up to go with the connection calls at Proverbs 31 website)
5 - Craving God Devotional
