I had prayed a lot about what to write today. During my weeks and weeks of pain and crying, I also went through weeks and weeks of questioning and wondering.
I came out on the other side wanting to just say this.
God Loves You
HE LOVES YOU
Beautiful, wonderful, marvelous YOU.
This is one of those head things that I get as far as I have been able to parrot it back. I knew it, but it really had not sunk in. It just kind of floated in my mind. See my mind likes to play tricks on me and my mind also doubts BIG TIME. I would read a verse that would share how much God loves me and then I would hear in my head a voice from the past saying "Well, God would REALLY love you if..." or "The thing is, you really don't deserve that love. God knows this about you..." or "God would love you more if..."
Does that happen to you?
If not, I truly am happy for you. I am thrilled. Now that may be hard to convey right here in a post, but knowing the difficulty I have had, I am really happy if you haven't had to worry about that. If you took God's word and by faith believed even that thing that can be so hard for me to grasp. HE LOVES YOU.
He loves me.
Knowing God loves you no matter what creates this amazing feeling inside you. There is a freedom yet there is this incredible humbling moment. His love is a big deal. It is a party kind of deal. It means you can (and really must) let go of all the other voices and incidents that have made you feel unworthy or made you feel that you had to try harder to be worthy.
God's love is not dependent on how your father treated you when you were growing up or even how he treats you now. It is not about how clean and tidy your house is today. It is not the sum of every employer you had or every person you dated. It h as nothing to do with how well you did in high school or college. Being loved by God has nothing to do with your weight gain, weight loss or how snarky you were to others last week (thank God cuz this girl can get snarky).
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:18
All of those other things are temporary. God is eternal. God's love is eternal. It is unconditional, powerful and beyond compare. You can't earn it. He gave it to you freely.
That is good news.
No. That is great news. If only we could grasp it.
Remember this:
Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.
John 1:12
So if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
John 8:36
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith -- and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--
Ephesians 2:8
Oh...and for those random scattered "if only..." thoughts remember this too:
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7
